PHG Ipoh Trip'13

As some of you may know, we PHG have a trip every year. 5 years after high school graduation, we are still doing it. I love them.

This trip was quite interesting as I almost couldn't make it because my dad was hospitalized for appendicitis and I wanted to take care of him, well luckily he recovered quick enough. hehe.

This time we went in 3 cars, PZX, Teo and CF drove.

Upon arriving Ipoh, we food lovers no doubt went to Ipoh town first to get a good taste of their renowned Ipoh Chicken Rice. We went to this restaurant called An Kee, that was located adjacently to Lou Wong ( which is the more famous chicken rice shop), we chose An Kee because we heard it is less expensive.)

Ipoh Town

Tauge 

Chicken Rice

Lou Wong - famous chicken rice shop

Opposite An Kee, I found a very interesting window. 

Sze Mei and I then walked around to take some photos. 

This is the famous Tau Fu Fah shop, just look at the queue. They even have "drive-through" service. We tried this on the last day, well undeniably, the tau fu fah was really smooth. 

We checked in at our "hotel". It is actually a two-stories terrace house. The house has 4 rooms, each comes with a bathroom. We were really happy with the place, it comes with a comfortable living room, a dry kitchen, a wet kitchen and a dining area. The porch was big enough to park 3 cars. You can even do BBQ there! 

What I like about the place is that it is clean and comfortable. It's about 15 minutes drive away from the town, I think that's pretty alright. But if you were to go there without a car, I think it would be hard to commute. 

After getting comfortable at our house (ahem), we then went to Kellie's castle where we took some interesting photos. It is located about half an hour from where we stayed. 

We would never miss an outing without the PHG pose. lol 

This is one photo I really like ! 

5 girls! Must be a record for PHG trips. haha 

On the second day, we went out early in the morning and we went to the railway station. 

I love the build of the place. Nice place to take photographs. 

Because it is within walking distance, we walked to Thean Chun for the famous pork satay and chee cheong fun. Too bad I didn't take any photos of those. 

After satisfying our stomach, we went to the Lost World of Tambun. About half an our drive from Ipoh Town. that's where I got my sunburn. 

We had so much fun taking rides, I wish I had taken my camera with me. 

We went to the Petting zoo and Sze Mei who is so scared of snakes cried when Teo and Kah Hoe played a prank on her. Bad boys. 

We spent the whole day there until it rained and at night we went to this restaurant called Tuck Kee. AWESOME smoked duck, the food was generally good and it wasn't too expensive. considering how much food we ordered. haha. 

Day 3: went to town for souvenirs and we left about 1pm. 

I wish I could come back every year and join them for the trip, but I know that that's not gonna be easy. 

well PHG, our aim, to Europe in 10 years? =) 

" I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; 

I will counsel you with my loving eye on you." 

- Psalm 32:8 

Just as I was pondering about life and my future, this verse came. God always opens up his arms for us when we turn to Him, no matter how bad we were before, as long as we repent and turn to him, He never fails us.

He stated clearly that He WILL instruct us and teach us the way we should go, and He does that lovingly.

My dad was hospitalized the other day for appendicitis, he was sleeping in his ward after the operation and I was sitting beside him. I started looking at the apparatuses and I saw the nurses working outside, and I thought, how nice it would be if I was a doctor! Launching into the chinese stereotype of what a "good career" is, I started wondering if I have made the right choice in studying music, after all, the music industry is pretty much a free lance industry and you have to be THAT good to be somebody. Brought up in a chinese family, being a nobody just can't cut it.

I want an easy life. Well duh, who doesn't? Maybe I am psyched to think that only people who has a "stable" job would get an easy life for they would probably have high income and they would live a better life. I sound so materialistic. But money is at the end of the day still very important in our lives no? Especially in Malaysia, where the cost of living is so high and the labor is so low. Perhaps if I was a musician who only thinks about my art, I would be less stressed out. So I started praying, telling God how I felt. I asked him to guide me, and this was what came.

Matthew 6:25 - 34 

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 

Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 

Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 

And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 

If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you - you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 

For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. " 

These few verses, I have visited and revisited it so many times over the past 10 years. But it is interesting that as I grow with time, I see something new each time I read this passage. Last time what struck me was the last verse - seek ye first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these will be given unto you. This time round, I read more into the verses I put in bold. Truly, humans plan but God is the only person who establishes our steps. 

爱是不保留

I cried. 

I cried after listening to this really beautiful song. It's sung by Jade Kwan 关心研. She happens to be one of the singers that I really like, and I only found out today that she's a Christian. 

It's amazing how God speaks to us - through the Bible, through a friend, and today, He spoke to me through a song. 

There are two lines in this song that struck me real hard today. 

The first line is 尘俗的爱只在乎曾拥有，一刻灿烂便要走。( I'll let you know why this line struck me in tomorrow's post, wahaha ) 

The second line is 惟求奉上生命全归主所有，要将一切尽献于我主的手，我已决定今生再没所求，惟望得主称赞已足够。

Why I felt so strongly about the second line? 

I think that right now, I am going through quite an interesting phase of my life, where I'm about to finish my studies, about to step out into the society and work. I have been thinking, where do I want to settle down, should I come back to Malaysia? Stay in the US? Move to Hong Kong? 

It would probably be easier if I am not studying music, in one of the very best contemporary music school no less, I constantly feel the need to live up to people's expectation, to be working hard and writing more music, to be 'successful'. People in Boston are so talented and intellectual I feel I have to work 10 times harder to achieve what they could. 

Right now you must be thinking I am an over-achiever. Well, truth is I've been brought up by a father who is a perfectionist, and being a perfectionist he wouldn't expect anything less than perfect. Don't get me wrong now, he loves us ( I have a brother and a sister), and he would be there to cushion us when we fail - that much I'm sure, but he also made a point when he said that you have to be the best of the best in order to survive in this society and if you want a comfortable living. 

Over time, I start to take matters in my own hands instead of relying on God. When I heard this song today, the second line that struck me says : "to uphold all my life to God, offering all I have to the hands of God. I've decided that I don't want any other things but God's praise." I remember close to 7 years back, I pray that my life would be an offering to God, so that I may glorify Him in everything I do. Looking back at these past 4 years of my life, I know that I have not live up to my promise. 

I cried. My spirit grieved. 

I prayed, God answered. 

It's again crazy how this awesome God shows me answers to my prayers. The past two years I have been praying lesser and lesser, I asked God after listening to the song:" WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME? Do I cease praying because I lost faith in you Lord? Do I start taking charge and ignoring you because I forgot that YOU should be the center of my life? " I told him that I feel lonely, sad, afraid. Afraid that I am not what my parents wished I would be, sad that I wouldn't be able to achieve something great in my life, and I'm lonely because there are just too much on my mind sometimes and there's no use telling others because they probably wouldn't understand. 

I prayed that He will speak to me. 

The answer came when I started up my Bible app. Today's verse of the day is Colossians 2:9-10 but I went on and read the whole chapter anyways. 

Colossians 2:5-10 

"For though I am absent from you in body, I am present with you in spirit and delight to see how disciplined you are and how firm your faith in Christ is. 

So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live your lives in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness. 

See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and the elemental spiritual forces of this world rather than on Christ. 

For in Christ all the fullness of the Deity lives in bodily form, and in Christ you have been brought to fullness. He is the head over every power and authority." 

Indeed, God is the head over every power and authority, we are born again in Christ, we are God's beloved children. Our Father sacrificed his beloved son for us, why should we be afraid? God wants us to be rooted and to be built up in Christ, what does it mean to be rooted? I guess that would mean following the teachings in the Bible. I'm again reminded that in Christ we are brought to fullness. I think back to all the times I'm afraid of stepping up, to just be brave and do something, to go for a jamming session for example - if we are brought to fullness in Christ, why should I worry about how others see me, how others criticize me. If the Lord can accept me, why can't I accept myself? 

All these I know deep down in my heart, but to be strengthened in the Lord after deviating from his path for so many years, I fear still. At the same time, I know that God has a plan for me, and I pray that He will show me my way when it's time. 

Goodnight for now ! There shall be another update tomorrow. 

MUCH LOVE from me to you . =) 

I can't believe i am actually blogging again....

I din sign in for so long that i actually forgot my password dy .. XD

Just wanna remind myself in the future to not be so careless anymore ..

Did one stupid thing today .. i rammed my car against the pavement in the church . bloody smart.

Haihhhzzzz ...

Thank God nobody was hurt , and the car was not THAT severely damaged.

i miss my long hair !!!

that's the meaning of being rash ..

but .. there won't be no excitement without such an impulse right ?

live with it Kai Yun ...

I'll miss my mum too ...

Random thoughts

I didn't realize that many people have actually moved on and has started their degree program.

Imagine how time flies ....

It felt like spm has only ended last month or sth but well .. it's been a year plus .

Felt like we just came back from NS and stuff .. then again, it's already past a year.

I just wanna say i miss our sophomore years .. ( cheh, trying to sound like Americans ) ..

Ppl , update me on which degree and where you guys are studying now .. I am so confused . lol .

Signing off ..

NIte

Accident on April Fool

Believe it or not ..

i was involved in this accident yesterday.

i was going straight and there was this bike coming from my right trying to turn into the left lane .. he tried to overtake me but he wasnt fast enough . He ended up under my car . O.O

lucky for him i wasn't going fast , lucky for me he wasn't being squashed like the watermelons in tv commercials .

My car was scratched .. the front portion only but it was bad enough .

the irony is that the motorcyclist was mute . and he was wearing this bulan sabit merah shirt.

An accident on April Fool , and the guy was mute ....

what are the chances of that happening ?

but well .. it happened . this is no effing april fool joke .

lalala .. dun care .

I dunno where i should start since it has been so long since i logged into my blog.

anyway .. i guess i should start with announcing that I've moved . not that you guys dunno since some of you have already crashed into my house.

These two months has been lots of packing and stuffing, throwing and relocating.

You won't know how much stuff you have until you have to pack them into boxes. I guess i should invite you guys over for the coming holiday .. whenever it is. =)

hmm .. i went to thailand during CNY . i think i should blog about it .. just for memory sake.

besides that, these two months has been a lot of studying and lazing. pretty much what i did this month. It's either read or sleep .

oh, i forgot another thing. EAT ! have been eating so bloody banyak that Kai yun is all so bloated again . lol . she should shrink soon .

what else?

i cut my hair. It's damn short !! i cant believe i did it . the hairdresser asked me what did i wanna do with my hair, she said it's layering or cutting it short since my hair has a bad record of going really messy with the natural curls. so i did what i thought was called an act of impulse .. i cut is short ! really really short.

I miss PHG ! when's the next karaoke session ? one where everyone can make it . lol .

btw, my performance is tmr. i hope Freddie doesn't screw me in front of everybody . haha .

toodles !

Old House.

Hmm .. i guess this would be the last post i blog from my old house.

For you who dunno yet, i am shifting dy la . I'll invite you guys over only during my house-warming k ? hehe .

I've been living in this house for 19 years. yes, ever since i was born . O.O . that's quite long isn't it ?

The down side of living at a place for so many years is that you have accumulated so much of rubbish and the worst thing is that you find it hard to throw away . cos everything has sentimental value lo , hantu ! ( quote freddie , lol )

every corner, every slab of marble piece, has memories of growing up .

breaking glasses, vomiting, drawing on the floor .. etc.

A huge thank you to the person who invented this thing called camera - so that pictures can be taken. I imagine one day when i grow old, i would be sitting on this rocking chair, overlooking a colourful flower bed painted by mother nature and flipping through my photo album, not to forget a cup of tea to sip on. haha !

enough of that .

packing sucks ! no further elaboration .

I'm actually excited about my new house though . It's not done yet !! haihz .. Hopefully i can move in by this week . I still needa prepare for my friday performance lehhh ...

ok la , i just wanna blog for the sake of blogging here for the last time .

There are a few things i wanna give thanks to God .

1. first of all, thanks for giving me friends that makes me feel that i belong . =) God knows what i mean.

2. for the time we spent on our private ET class . LOL

3. for the new house.

4. and for the spirit that He gave . =)

IcOm was damn full of chinese New Year mood these few days weihh .....

thanks to my seniors and Lee . =P

CNY come, CNY go . Another year is passing by without our realization . =s

years come and years go , something changes , something remains the same .

i guess i'd be surprised to wake up one day and realize that something has finally changed .

我－不－知－道－我－在－想－甚－麼。

是時候結束了，喜歡不喜歡也一定要。

i'm just trying very hard to blog about sth .

沒有你，沒有靈感。

16th January 2010

wait .. i DO have something more to post .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAM SZE MEI !!!

OMG, you're getting older ... you ARE older ! happy 19th ! lol .

ok la .. i know we are all gonna turn 19 this year . but . i still have a few months of 18. lalala.

on her bday night, we were supposed to have steamboat . BUT she couldnt make it cos she has to go for STEAMBOAT with her family. lol. what a coincidence.

so well, we are not the kind that give up so easily.

We persist to have sth on . In the end we went for yum cha session at old town (ampang point). *to whoever you know you are, next time dont so blur go to Midah Old Town la .. hehe. =P

Only a few of us went, that is wilfred, kah hoe, chi wei, teo , Jemy and i ..

we are such good friends. (I'm not trying to say ppl who cant make it are bad la ... u know what i mean).

blow water for 2 hours and went home . hehe .

I hope Sze Mei likes the present although it's girlish !!! lol. It's nice k !

my wish for sze mei is that for her to be happy ( as usual), not to be so rude (wakakakakak) and to get a bf this year !!! HAHAHAHHA .

My mum got angry with me .

She was so angry that she asked me to get my next month's pocket money from dad . O.O

okay , maybe it sounds pretty normal to you . but my mum is the super patient kind of homo sapien . so when sth like this happens, it means a lot .

It's my fault though .. i forgot to collect rental for her. O.O

cos i was busy doing research and i forgot about it. I almost forgot to pick up my sis too ! double O.O

The problem with me is i dun feel the anger she's feeling. So i am happily typing this . Cos i've finally got something to blog about !

and it happened to be so convenient that i am free today too !

hence the update . LOL .

i'll really try to blog more . this blog is so dead.

Goodbye 2009

yeap . Goodbye 2009 .

I pity my blog for having such a lousy owner, and the owner is trying to make up for what's lost.

2009 is gone just like that.

I still remember celebrating New Year 2009 in NS camp . I think that was the first time i celebrated new year without family around. Thank goodness i still had a few KL lang to accompany me.

Time really slips away when you dun realise. It's a heartache to think about it this way .
Sometimes when i look back, i realize there are many things not accomplished. Hopefully the new year would be different, and that the new year would be one with more love . for the family especially . =)

song of the year 2009 ( category: love )

Never had a dream come true.

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus
I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
And tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Chorus

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

Chorus

A part of me will always be with you...

somehow this song is exactly how i feel like . literally . especially the chorus.
if only someone knows. =P

Welcome 2010 !!!

May this year be a better year.

冬

I never really know the feeling of being awkward in a family until today.
I never understood how they felt till today.

To be thrown into an awkward moment with friends or ppl you dunno is bad enough, but to be put into an edgy situation among family is ten times worse.

The feeling of having an invisible barrier in between, but only you and he/she realize while all the others are oblivious.

You know that something is going on and there are rumors spreading around, but they acted as if we dunno anything, as if all that was said didnt matter.

I realize i can't keep up with that . I dun wanna talk to them . They don't understand, seems like they'll never. they only see one side of the things .

or perhaps , they are right . i certainly hope not . =(

enough of rantings. blah . i'm seriously trying to forget everything .

Lord please help me.

update

hey all ..

PHG trip has finally come to an end. It was a really really wonderful trip to Langkawi where all of us get to chill out. I'll post about it later.

Besides that, final exam has also come to an end. I'm so glad everything is over and we get to enjoy our hols now !! hehe .

anyways . wanna busy myself with uploading the langkawi photos on fb. pls pop there and have a look. It's private except for PHG. but you can always ask for permission to view them. haha !

toodles.
nite

爱－ 第三篇

凯韵的幸福方程式＝ 雨 ＋ 雾 ＋ 思念 ＋ 李斯特的“爱之梦”

够简单吧？那是第一个步骤。

不过，如果数学题能够得到答案的话，我也应该会很开心了。＝）

如果在想起你的爱人时，没了那种脸烫烫，心暖暖的感觉， 他还是你的爱人吗？

这还叫爱吗？

问题是。。。 他来电时， 我还有那种感觉？

哈哈！真是荒谬！

有没有听见笑声背后的讽刺？

再笑多一次给你听。 哈哈！哈哈哈！

okay . I'd better stop blogging in mandarin. some of you are gonna give me a punch in my already-not-perfect face . lol. but sometimes i just cant help it ! maybe it's my sis' influence . O.O

toodles

爱 － 第二篇

其实，爱也不是那么绝望。

只要是找对的人，大概就没什么问题了吧？

谢谢你给了我自信。＝）

愛

忽然觉得， 爱很重要。

好久没用华语写字了，或说， 好久没写华语字了。

是的，爱， 很重要。

爱，会给人带来幸福，所以我要爱。
爱，会给人带来灵感，所以我要爱。
爱，就算给我带来心伤，我还是要爱。
如果我知道爱了，最终还是要分开，我依旧选择爱。

因为我觉得没爱过，比受伤害来得惨。

我羡慕受过伤的人，最起码，他们知道什么叫热恋。
我羡慕暗恋人的人，最起码，他们心里常有个人陪着他们。
我羡慕热恋中的人，他们总知道想起爱人时，脸红的感觉。

我似乎忘了怎么爱。
听起来不太像我，但我好像爱不了。

是身邊沒好人選，還是舊傷未復原？
哈哈
最後一句令我發笑。

沒談過戀愛，又怎會受傷害？

夠了，不寫了。

有時真的會希望，找個人徠愛。

好了，真的不說了。

In Love

with .. Beethoven's Virus .

I think this is my first time going crazy over Korean drama. =)

Graduated from a music college, Du Ru Mi's dream was to join an orchestra and perform. She soon formed an orchestra with people of all ages and backgrounds. This is where the conductor Kang Gun Woo (aka Kang Mae )comes in. Du Ru Mi soon bonded with the trumpeter, also named Kang Gun Woo and started to form a relationship with him. But at the same time, she finds herself falling in love with Kang Mae who's oh-so-mean to everybody and is 15 years older. Despite the fact, Du Ru Mi understands the conductor more than anybody else, soon they started a relationship. But good situation never last .. what could have happened? It's up to you to find out. =)

My sister bought this DVD a year back. I've watched snippets of it when my sis watched the show. But only recently that i find myself addicted to this series. and i like one of the song so much. I think two people who loves each other should be together. =) too bad the conductor is so stubborn. but somehow, it's because he loves but he thinks that he shouldn't be with her because of his age that makes it ironically beautiful . That's what makes watching it more interesting.

This song is really how the girl feels about the conductor. =)

somehow i want the girl to be with the conductor, although the younger guy is much cuter, although the conductor is 15 years older than her.

2 person who loves each other should be together.

here's the meaning of the song. ( the italic words are the phrases i like )

Even though it only hurts a little, tears form

My heart screams out

If i pass in front of you, beside you

You were my whole world

i want only you

But I can't breathe when I'm in front of you

As if you weren't my destiny

As if this were just a fleeting moment

Next to you, who let me go so easily

I go closer to you step by step

Although i cannot move at all

You can make me restless

You make me cry

Like a fool, Like a child

I want to just laugh it off instead

As i get closer to you

although i get more scared

I guess this love cannot be stopped

Why is it just my love that is late?

Just my love that is hard?

Although i;m right in front of you, just beside you

You were my whole world

I see only you

But when I'm in front of you

I always look away

As if you were my very last

As if this were my last moment

Next to you, who let me go so easily

I go closer to you step by step

Although i cannot move at all

You can make me restless

You make me cry

Like a fool, Like a child

I want to just laugh it off instead

As i get closer to you

although i get more scared

I guess this love cannot be stopped

Even from a far distance

I could look upon you

That's what you call love

If perhaps this yearning, this longing

When it sounds, when it touches

Please just act like you dont know

Although the closer i get to you

The more scared i get

This love cannot be stopped

Wednesday in English class.

Mr. Idros : Life is a sentence that ends with a full stop.
Nicholas : Eh, why can't end with an exclamation mark? L-O-L.
Kishern : What if it ends with a question mark ? hahhaa .

Kishern : Life is a phrase that ends with perfect cadence.
exclamation mark = interrupted cadence ?

lol . i dont think you'll understand the literal meaning . just .. try to understand the philosophy behind it. haha .

toodles