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I never really know the feeling of being awkward in a family until today.
I never understood how they felt till today.

To be thrown into an awkward moment with friends or ppl you dunno is bad enough, but to be put into an edgy situation among family is ten times worse.

The feeling of having an invisible barrier in between, but only you and he/she realize while all the others are oblivious.

You know that something is going on and there are rumors spreading around, but they acted as if we dunno anything, as if all that was said didnt matter.

I realize i can't keep up with that . I dun wanna talk to them . They don't understand, seems like they'll never. they only see one side of the things .

or perhaps , they are right . i certainly hope not . =(

enough of rantings. blah . i'm seriously trying to forget everything .

Lord please help me.